Assalamualaikum. :)
So, yes. Let's continue with our writing. Aha, of course, part 2. :))
Why we doesn't deserve to ask? We are the creature. We are not deserve to ask Our Creator. Roughly, we can conclude it like, yeah, ungrateful.
It's the characteristic of ungrateful people. In this reality, in this world, there's nothing so easy, so *tap tap* and then you get it. There's no such things. That is fully crap. That is impossible. Except, yes, except is very important in order to write a fact. For me, lah. I don't know everyone. I'm young and yes, in another side of the 'I'm young' word is, I am young enough to know what world means.
I want to share my experience. My shallow experience during this 11 years I be a "student".
I think the 3 years lately is quite amazing. There's a lot that I found since I leave my hometown. I found new friend with new behavior. I found new teachers with a new attitude.
It's amazing! No it's not actually. Because most of the things that I found is bad. It's not bad just it's worse.
When I was in form 1, 13 years old. I found that the 'kelas aliran agama' is not suit with me. I can't go on with the Arabic Language and so on. It is very difficult for me to choose between the A and the B.
It is very hard. I'm going through hardship in the class because this girl, does not belong to this class. That is what I thought.
Then, I decided. I won't put any risk for my future. I won't! I am not interested with Arabic and stuff. Yeah, I admit it. I am very bad. There's a lot of parents who want their child to go to 'kelas aliran agama' but their child is not selected. But, me? I passed the test but, suddenly, I'm start to think back, is this is the right decision? Can I go on with this?
When I was young, in the primary school. I go to 'sekolah agama'. At the school, I cover myself well. But, when I go to another place, I'm not covering myself properly. I'm wearing short skirt and thingy. I never felt shame because of it. For me, I don't care about all the aurah and stuff even I have learned about it since in the kindergarten.
I'm wearing hijab when everybody does it. I have grown up. And people around me changed. Being good to better. Being worst to the best. And me? What will happen to me? And because of that, I'm wearing hijab. They changed in and out. Me? I'm not. I have changed my cloth. In fact, my personality is not changed. I'm still wild and do everything that I wanted to. I think hijab is enough. But, in fact, a hijab with no good faith brings me nothing. Until now. Until I decided to change myself in early of this year.
Then, I change my class. And, that is the time, I started to learn how is this world actually.
When I am in form 1. I got problems. That's normal. Just about the friends. This lalala make a mess with this bububu and in the same time they entangle me because yes, usually, I be the center.
I never cry about it. It just like, 'come on lah, I have handled this before and it's worse than this. I don't give a damn about this.'
In form 2, I am very happy. The teachers are great! The friends are absolutely awesome. It's just like a year without any problem. I don't have any problem with the teachers and friends. It is amazing. I felt very happy in 2012. I can focus in the class and I got flying colours in exam. I never fall. I'm strong and tough.
I am just like the robot. Perfectly. :) *precious memory*
I thought my life would shine bright like before. But, it's not. It's change. A lot. Until 1.2.2013, I'm still crying for this year. For this horrible year.
I can't understand what the teachers are talking about. And the teachers, I don't know them. They are not my form 1 and form 2 teacher. They are new teachers with new ways of teaching. And, yes, I can't adopt it! I used to be among the best in the batch because of the teachers. I understand well what they have taught me. Now, it's not. I don't understand anything. My confidence level is 0%. I'm crying. Afraid if I can't be among the best anymore. I'm very afraid of the shellacking. I can't stand it. When I used to be at the top. I will make sure that I will always be at the top with the help of the teachers. But, now, how I'm going to make sure it? I'm crying. For all day long. In the class, during recess, when I'm home. I'm crying. Crying for this unacceptable situation.
I am very very weak at that time. It's just like, I have given up. But, then, I started to change. I perform my prayer better. I read Al-Quran much much more than before. I cover my aurah well. When I feel very weak, I remember Allah. I beg for Him to help me. To give me a new hope, a new strength, a new faith.
For me, I have been through this because of Allah love me. Really do. He wants me to change. He wants me to ask for His help.
Now, it is just the same. I am still crying. But, I cry when I am reciting DOA.
I am still crying in the class but I know, He is right beside me. He will guide me. There will be a way for me. He will take me out from this darkness.
Sufficient for us is Allah, and He is the Best Guardian
Assalamualaikum. :)
I just want to share something about me, again.
Maybe we could take some 'iktibar' from this post.
It's Wednesday already. How am I? In a pink? Or in a very very horrible condition?
On Tuesday, it is very bad. Definitely bad. Why? I miss my MJ very bad. For three days in Cameron before, we spent most of our time together. Smile and laugh. We really enjoyed our time together.
For a several times, I cried on Tuesday because I really miss her. It is horrible.
And like always, before I sleep, I always talked this to her,
#np Apo Kono Eh Jang
Since right now I live in Seremban, I think, the song is very very interesting. I don’t know but as for me, it has really made me comfortable. Like how PSY made Gangnam’s people comfort through his Gangnam Style.
Muahaha. If there is the same song with Apo Kono Eh Jang but in loghat Kedah. I think the same thing would happen. I will really comfort with the song. Simple isn’t?
Whatever I typed above is not the main story that has brought me to the in front of this Hewlett.
I want to tell you about, me. Yeah. Finally, something about me. Right here. *pointing the laptop’s screen*
I bought EOS Lip Balm last Monday. Then, I asked mama and kakak to bank in the money on Tuesday because I am too busy to make it by myself. Daa.
On the following day, on the Wednesday, of course. The owner of Italia De Shoppe post my EOS Lipbalm and Obuse Lip Gloss. Yeah, I forgot to typed Obuse Lip Gloss above.
On Thursday, of course I didn’t get the parcel yet because it’s Maulidur Rasul. It’s okay. I used to wait the parcel for almost 3 days. It do torture me! *cry*
On Friday, yeah. This is the second sad thing happened yesterday. Poslaju came to my house to give the parcel to me but, yeah. There’s nobody in my home on 12:40 p.m. When I get back, yes, the Poslaju leave the letter, asked me to go to Seremban Utara’s Post Office to collect my stuff.
Quickly, I changed my outfit and go to the Seremban Utara’s Post Office.
And, this is the saddest thing happened yesterday. I go to Poslaju National Courier counter at the end of the post office. but, they said that my stuff isn’t arrive yet. They asked me to come back on tomorrow (Saturday).
So, yeah, I will go to the Post Office again for today.
North Seremban or Seremban Utara's Post Office in front of Maybank, closed to Affin Bank.
Dear MJ, I don’t know what will happen to me, to our family, if you are gone. I love you. I love you. I love you.
You are the one. My sister forever. From world until Jannah. Amin.
Misunderstanding between sisters are normal for others. But for me, I really don’t want any mistake in this relationship. I want it to be perfect. I want every single moment in my life, in my day, is full with your voice, your advice.
I want to see you smile before I sleep. I want to see your face before I walk out of the house.
I don’t want anything to break down this relationship. I don’t want we fight, argue about something useless. Because, our connection is the best thing ever happened in my life.
I thank Allah everyday because of this.
This year had been the toughest year ever in my life. But, you are still here. Right beside me. In the dark. You have brought me this beautiful life. This magnificent world from another sight. Enjoy the life with another heart.
If you get low, just call me whenever,
This is my oath to you
Don’t get worried because of other’s words. They don’t know you like I do.
I am the one who sees you changed. See you become matured. See you become better, day by day.
Praise to Allah. I got you as a sister. You brought the light in my life.
You are the one who gave me warm hug when I cried.
That night, you are tired, isn’t? You really need to take a nap. But, because of me. You still awake. Accompany me as long as you could because I am horribly depressed at that time. Again, you gave me the warm hug.
A hug that only the sisters can feel how meaningful it is.
Today, I want to tell you about a girl. TOUGH BROKEN-HEARTED GIRL.
• The name given is Nurhanis Idayu binti Azizan
• Cheer
• Fun
• Enjoyable
But, there's a week. Wednesday, when his eldest brother gone. Go away from the family. But, this girl, she came to school without a less cheerful, fun, and enjoyable.
She used to be one of my best friends. I’m worried about her even there is, yeah, a big gap between us. I still love her.
I’m scared if she can’t concentrate to her study. I’m scared if she can’t smile anymore after this. I’m scared.
But, I am definitely wrong when she came to the school on last Thursday. She’s smiling even I knew, it’s not the one that she used to give it to me. But, a sister that loses his brother can smile. It’s awesome.
How tough she is. She still can smile and laugh. I’m proud with you honey.
May Allah grant Paradise to your brother. Amiin.
“Kepergianmudirasai. Al Fatihah buatmu. Adik syg abg ♥” via Twitter
“Kepergianmu sungguh dirasai . semoga kamu tenang di alam sana , rohmu dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang-2 yang beriman . malam nih malam ketiga tahlil di rumah aku . Al Fatihah buat abg yang tersayang Ahmad Nur Afiq Bin Azizan . Adik sayang abang :') ♥” via Facebook
Be tough, be strong Hanis.
Because, it's already 2013. And, yes, I will get older for the upcoming December. Alhamdulillah for a beautiful 2012.
All of the songs is about my life, my wonderful life. :)
1. A Thousand Years by Christina Perri ft. Steve Kazee
I am Twi-Hard, remember?
2. Oath by Cher Lloyd
This song is for my BFF.
wherever you go, just always remember
that you got a home for now and forever
and if you get low
just call me whenever
this is my oath to you.
3. Want U Back by Cher Lloyd
Yes, I want you back!
I don't give a shit, no one else can have you
4. If You Ever Come Back by The Script
I'm not yet ready to tell to you guys about this. Sorry.
5. Diamonds by Rihanna
A very important advice for me,
shine bright like a diamonds
A sentence that have mean A LOT to me.
6. Scream and Shout by Will.i.am ft. Britney Spears
Sorry to say, but the song is bit dirty. you know what I mean, right?
I fall in love with this song just because of a sentence,
Just scream and shout and let it all out
Scream, shout. Let it all out. It's now be my inspiration. Scream and shout, when you can't bear the pain. Let it all out. Then, try to solve the problem, if you get the pain again, Scream and shout. Let it all out. I already do this for a day and yeah, I'm better right now. No pain, no stress. Long live happily.
7. Toxic by Melanie Martinez
It just a cover from Melanie Martinez. The song is belong to Britney Spears, actually.
Actually, I fall in love with Melanie and not the song. I love her voice, unique. :)
happy saturday guys. :*
dengan bangganya ingin mengatakan yang, saya telah mula bercuti dari sekolah dan segala yang sewaktu dengannnya bermula hari ini. hahahahaha.
but, tahun depan dah PMR. 0.o
malas sungguh nak study.
see? belum apa apa lagi dah fikir malas. negative betul.
hahahaha.
but, sekarang tengah takut ni. takut kalau next year mia terpisah dengan arep.
haih.
tak dapat difikirkan macam mana susahnya hidup dalam kelas tu, kalau dia tak ada. boleh pengsan hari hari agaknya.
jangan lah macam tu. takut dah nak masuk 2013. :'(
rasa macam taknak masuk pun ada. nak kekal dengan 2012. huu. *cedih*
okay. cerita lain pulak ye.
harini bosann sungguh kan?
eh, dah pukul 12. -,-
tak perasan pun bila pukul 9. hahahaha.
rasa nak keluar jj harini. buat gila ke apa ke. apa apa je lah. asalkan tak duduk rumah harini. bosann lah.
lagi satu, apa benda tiba-tiba ada #TeamFyllo ni?
apa kejadahnya fyllo tu?
tak pernah aku tahu pun. -,-
dah tu, yang #TeamFyllo semua bangga sangad kenapa?
dapat iPhone 5 sorang sebijik ke? hesy.
nazatul amira.
saya minta maaf kalau saya ada buat salah sepanjang dua tahun kita kenal ni.
minta maaf juga kalau saya ada kutuk awak, marah-2 awak tanpa soal siasat, kutuk-2 kawan awak, dan juga kutuk-2 rakan sepasukan awak.
saya akan sentiasa doakan kebahagiaan awak dengan orang yang boleh jaga awak dengan baik lebih dari yang dia pernah buat.
akan ada orang lain yang menyinari hidup awak. :)
percayalah.
saya akan sentiasa ingat awak, doakan kesejahteraan awak tak kira dekat mana awak berada sebab dalam hati saya, walaupun apa pun yang terjadi, awak masih kawan saya.
widyaqistina.
saya minta maaf kalau saya ada buat salah sepanjang 2 tahun kita bersahabat ni.
minta maaf kalau saya ada kutuk awak, rasa jeles dengan wan awak, marah-2 awak.
awak KAWAN BAIK saya SELAMANYA. :* 'kamibuddyztakkanberpisah'
awak, setiap kali saya rasa sedih, awak selalu di sisi saya. masa izzah bagitahu saya pasal dia, awak ada dekat sisi saya. awak bagi saya kata-kata semangat. awak lah yang tak pernah lupakan saya. dekat mana ada saya, dekat situ ada awak. sebab tu, saya sayang awak sangat-sangat. saya gembira kita tak bergaduh langsung tahun ni. itu lah, kita ada chemistry.
setiap kali saya balik kedah, awak yang akan tanya saya,
pukul berapa nak bertolak?
dah sampai?
and lastly,
mia jaga diri. iloveyou.
awak baik sangat dengan saya. sebab tu saya tak pernah tak sayang awak. awak dekat hati saya selamanya!
loo wei yeng.
awak lah yang bagi saya ceria bila saya sedih. awak bagi saya semangat untuk teruskan hidup tanpa dia. awak sentiasa bagi saya nasihat pasal hubungan saya dengan dia. awak sentiasa balas text saya. tak kira lah saya mengadu pasal apa pun. saya sayang awak. moga awak sentiasa bahagia dengan Vincent Chong. :)
najihah.
awak lah yang buat saya lega. awak kekal kawan baik saya even awak duduk belakang sekali dan saya dekat depan sekali. kita selalu jalan keluar sekolah sama-sama. kebelakangan ni, saya rasa saya makin rapat dengan awak.
untuk korang semua, yang sentiasa berada di sisi saya semasa saya susah dan senang,
saya ucapkan terimakasih banyak-2. apa yang uollss buat dekat saya, takkan pernah terbalas.
atul, mia tahu mia banyak sangat salah dekat atul. mia gembira kita dapat kawan, walaupun sekejap. :* atul, jaga diri baik-2. jangan gaduh dengan ati dah, dia kawan atul. and dia bukan setakat kawan atul, dia rakan seperjuangan atul jugak. :)
widya, mia tahu mia tak sebaik widya pada mia. mia tak dapat balas segala kebaikan widya pada mia. mia nak kita berkawan selamanya.
loo, mia harap loo akan kuat kalau suatu hari nanti chong tak ada. walau apa pun terjadi, loo tetap ada mia,yip,widya and atul.
jihah, mia tahu mia banyak buat salah dengan najihah. mia banyak susahkan najihah. apa yang najihah buat dekat mia, takkan pernah terbalas.
TERIMAKASIH KERANA SUDI MENJADI SEBAHAGIAN DARI KENANGAN 2012 DALAM HIDUP SAYA.
tak cerita lagi pasal cikgu aaisyah kan?
tak pe, nanti boleh rujuk ye.
by the way, pelajar 2A yang ceria dan comel semuanya ini sayang GILA GILA dekat CIKGU AAISYAH. knp? maybe because she is the best teacher ever that taught us BM in the secondary school.
having fun all the time.
ingat lagi shazriq? buyat yang cheerful gila tu? ada cerita rasanya dalam blog lama. -,-
he wrote this song to our beloved Cikgu Aaisyah.
bermula satu peristiwa seorang guru yang tabah walau kami melukakan hatinya namun cikgu masih bersabar oh..cikgu ampunilah kami oh..cikgu halalkan ilmu yang diberi kami tahu kami bersalah kami mohon keampunan darimu maafkanlah kami oh cikgu halalkanlah segala ilmumu kami perlukan restumu doakanlah kami oh cikgu moga kami capai kejayaan yang telah diimpikan terimalah kasih,terimalah kasih.. cikgu aisyah... semoga cikgu sihat saja kami berharap berjumpa lagi janganlah lupakan kami kami masih anak murid cikgu..
unfortunately, most of us forgot to bring our camera. it just like *** ?!
however,
Cikgu Aaisyah recorded THIS with her handphone.
I don't know why on the most important day, we forgot something that could make a very sweet memory when we watch it.
sekarang ramai orang guna shiseido black mask untuk menyingkirkan black head. kan?
tapi, mia cari dekat watson/guradian semua tu, tak ada pun.
then, haritu mia jalan jalan dekat tesco. dekat bahagian makeup tu.
ada nampak oxy nose pore strip ni.
then, mia pun beli. kenapa? mia memang ada banyak sangat blackhead dekat hidung. ah, malu. >,<
tension pun ada kadang kadang. tapi, disebabkan mia ada exam 2 minggu yang lepas and sibuk dengan folio yang sampai harini tak siap-siap lagi tu, mia pun tak try lagi nose pore strip ni.
Insyaallah, bila mia guna nose pore strip ni, mia akan buat review.
ye? korang harus lah bersabar sikit.
sebenarnya, dah berapa lama dah nak buat MAKEUP ORGANIZER.
tapi, dah berapa lama jugak lah kotak kotak cereal and kotak kasut masih ada dalam bilik tanpa sebarang perubahan. sakit pulak hati tengok. tapi, nak buat, malas pulak.
nampak tak permainan ni?
pemalas tapi gedik nak buat. itu yang terjadi sebenarnya. ahahaha.